I recently visited the Royal Gorge in Colorado, where my sister, Sarah, pleaded with me to go with her on the Skycoaster attraction. The Skycoaster is a giant swing that launches you 1,200 feet in the air, face down, over the river gorge. I was intrigued by the thought of it but had no intention of signing up for it! “I can’t Sarah, I really can’t.” She insisted I could and her bribes and pep talks really put the pressure on. I kept telling her I was not going to do it, but she refused to get out of line. I on the other hand, was never in line in the first place! Watching others go made me so scared, I could hardly breathe! “It would be so much more fun if we did it together,” she said. She wanted to do it so badly and this was not an adventure I wanted to leave her to do on her own. So slowly and with much hesitation, I found my place in line.
I began to relax a bit more knowing the decision had been made. We signed, we paid, and we put on the gear. As the time got closer, Sarah did everything she could to reassure me it would be ok and that it would be “so worth it.” I thought I would try and prepare her beforehand for my reaction so I told her, “If I’m really quiet, everything’s fine, I’m just focusing.” The moment finally came. The workers fastened our clips and we were on our way up. My reaction was the exact opposite of what I anticipated. I couldn’t keep my mouth shut the entire time—asking the people below to pray, asking myself why I would ever make this decision, asking when it was over, and vowing this would be the last adventurous thing I’d ever do. As I soared over the canyon, I realized all my complaining was keeping me from enjoying this experience that I wanted to share with my sister. So instead of keeping one eye closed and clinging to Sarah with both hands, I opened my eyes and clung to her with only one hand instead. The initial fear and doubt was crippling, but had I stayed on the ground I would have missed out on an amazing experience and observing God’s creation and power in a very…unique…kind of way.
If you’re like me, you may have had a similar experience when it comes to your relationship with the Lord. Maybe you’ve sensed the Lord asking you to do something, but you are certain you can’t. It’s too much, it’s too overwhelming, and you’re sure you’re just not cut out for it…and then His still, small voice whispers, “You can.” His promises begin pushing back your fears, His presence brings a sense of peace, and His faithfulness assures you that you’re not on your own.
Moses was well-acquainted with this kind of experience when the Lord said to him, “Come, I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring my people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt (Ex. 3:10).” For Moses, this may have seemed more like a death sentence than a significant opportunity. Years prior, Moses’ anger led him to murder an Egyptian and the previous Pharaoh sought to kill him. Now the Lord was giving him a task that he was certain was not for him. “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the children of Israel out of Egypt (Ex. 3:11)?” Despite Moses feeling unworthy before the Lord, the Lord assures him, “I will be with you…(v. 12)” Not only did Moses feel unworthy, he also felt unequipped for such a task. The following paraphrase reflects Moses’ fear and doubt and how the Lord continually provided for Moses despite it.
“What if they don’t believe me?”
“I will give you signs.”
“But I’m not an eloquent speaker.”
“I will give you the words to speak.”
“Oh, Lord, please send someone else.”
“I will send Aaron to help you.”
Leading the people out of slavery in Egypt was no small task, but it was a task that allowed Moses to witness the power of God, a task that allowed him to feel the steadfast love of God, a task that drove him to reliance upon God, and a task that allowed him to experience the faithfulness of God. Sometimes the very things we fear are the things that bring the most freedom, the things that allow us to know God in the most intimate way.
What task is God calling you to? Maybe you feel like you do not deserve such a responsibility from the Lord, maybe you feel like you lack the qualifications, maybe you feel like there’s a number of other people who could do it better than you. Maybe that’s right where God wants you. Maybe you’re in a prime position to experience Christ like never before. Go with Him, despite your fear, and know that He will equip you along the way. It will be “so worth it.”